Last year, the holidays fell conveniently during a major lapse in my weight loss efforts, where I regained half of the weight I had lost over the course of 10 months.
This year, I was .4 pounds over my goal at my Weight Watcher’s meeting, the Tuesday before Thanksgiving. By then, I had been a member of WW for 21 months, and I had worked with a therapist and a dietician for two years prior to that. I was determined to reach this milestone, holidays or not.
I rolled over 4 weekly points everyday, and brought fruit trays to both of the Thanksgiving gatherings I attended on Thursday. I happily enjoyed reasonable portions of all of my favorite foods, and ended the day having eaten a respectable 45 points, while enjoying fun, stress-free times with my friends and family.
If this were my final exam, I passed with flying colors! On December 3, 2019, after 3 decades of restricting, then binge eating, I reached my weight goal.
I knew this was a huge personal victory, but what surprised me was to learn how rare of a victory it was. My heaviest weight had put me in the category of “obesity,” and I now have a BMI of 20, which puts me close to the lower end of my healthy weight range. I lost 60 pounds and went from a size 14 to a size 0.
My research showed me that .8% of women with obesity, ever reach a healthy weight. Of those who do, the statistics for maintaining that weight are significantly better, with only 78% regaining the weight they lost.
So I did, in fact, do the nearly-impossible.
My journey and eventual success have provided me with some unique observations on the obesity epidemic and our cultural attitudes toward weight loss and diet.
Here are some of my thoughts:
1. We need to separate “weight” from “worth.”
Weight is a weighty topic. We all assume that somewhere out there, everyone else is thin and staying that way effortlessly, while we are the lone fat kid in the corner of the room. This is not the case. Most Americans are overweight, and this is the case in most other western nations as well. It is a societal issue, not a deficit in one person’s willpower or character.
For me, one of the biggest turning points was when I could weigh myself without judging that number. Weight is a data point. Being overweight causes healthy problems and shortens life expectancy. It is a health issue.
However, that does not mean that a person can not be beautiful at any size. It does not mean that a person is not worthy at every size. We need to stop judging ourselves and everyone else and band together to get to the root of this problem that is affecting our society as a whole.
2. We need to ditch the thinking that a quick fix even exists.
Everyone wants to lose weight. But here’s the catch: They want to lose is FAST. Like now. In time for Christmas. In time for the class reunion or wedding. We don’t want to diet forever.
But it isn’t about temporarily depriving ourselves, using willpower, then going back to our old patterns. The way we eat now, has made us gain weight. Going back to the way we eat now, will make us gain more weight. Trying a quick fix might lead to some water weight loss initially, but sustaining such a way of eating is really not possible over the long term.
Losing weight meant changing my habits permanently. It meant making changes I could live with, which meant that the weight came off slowly. It meant getting back on track the multitude of times I slid back into my old habits. It meant dealing with my tendency to emotionally eat. It meant changing the situations that led me to have those emotions in the first place.
I quit my job and found another. I left my closest friends and chose to spend my time with different people. I quit drinking. I changed my patterns of communication and interaction. This wasn’t done overnight.
3. We need to remember what a healthy weight looks like.
At my WW meeting tonight, I learned that most people quit either in their second week, or 10 pounds from their goal. The latter might surprise some people, but I did not find it surprising at all.
As soon as I approached my healthy weight range, I began getting “concerned” comments, that I had “lost enough weight.” The comments only increased in their frequency and intensity as I approached my goal. Strangers and barely-known acquaintances began to voice their concern that I was losing too much weight.
But here is the thing. I am not underweight at all. In fact, I could lose 7 more pounds and still be at a healthy weight. Because everyone around us is overweight or obese, we have forgotten what a healthy weight looks like.
4. We need to change our negative attitude toward weight loss.
Yes, you know I am not a fan of memes. But the ones about weight loss are the worst.
While it is true that we all have a collective frustration at the difficulty of losing weight, simply reinforcing that negativity does nothing to change anything. The truth is that we can do hard things. We can do seemingly impossible things. But we don’t get there by constantly repeating that we can not do it, even if our repetition is under the guise of humor.
Another theme in our memes and in our conversations, centers around the notion that eating healthy means deprivation. Yet through most of my weight loss journey, I ate ice cream everyday at lunch time. Whenever there is cake in the lounge at work, I help myself to a small portion. I eat tacos. I eat pizza. But I do not overeat these things. There is nothing luxurious or self-care related about overeating. It is an addiction and a coping mechanism. True self-care will make overeating seem ridiculous.
So those are some observations I have made on my journey so far. I am sure that as I continue into maintenance and work on other aspects of my personal growth and development, I will have more lessons to share with all of you.
The higher I can aim, the better. I remember one year, when I blogged at Journey to Ithaca, my resolutions were: eat less poison, get completely off the grid, produce no more than one grocery bag or garbage per month, put together a 12-piece wardrobe, and have my Christmas shopping done by December 1.
I did eat less poison and put together a 12-piece wardrobe. And with the other goals, I learned a lot about goal setting.
Another case in point? My efforts to exercise consistently and lose weight.
I tried to start exercising my senior year of high school, when I was still thin. After a year of therapy and medication, I had successfully quit my meds and was sitting in my last therapy session. My therapist was not stellar (in fact, I had to go to therapy as an adult to unlearn a lot of things that I learned from the professionals I worked with during that time of my life!), but she did have one nugget of advice to give me. When I asked her what I could do to help maintain my mental health, she was adamant that I start an exercise program.
I set out to do some research, and I learned that our local community center offered a free step class for high school students. I eagerly attended and felt comfortable amongst the teens of various shapes, sizes, and ability levels in the class. Our instructor was a cheerful 20-something named Jodi, with a bouncy pony tail. We all really liked her.
I went to that class for about 6 months, until I graduated. It was a few months until I got brave enough to attend my first class as an adult.
I started at the community center, since it was familiar. But I noticed that the adult classes lacked community. I also noticed that my heart rate often got too high during class, so I had to use less support under my step and smaller weights. I became very self-conscious about this.
In the brochure for the community center, was an ad for a new women’s fitness center. I went there and immediately loved the community!
What I did not love, were the large mirrors. I was skinny and weak. I could noticably do less than everyone else. I paid for 28 classes, but stopped attending before I used them all. When I thought about going back, the center had gone out of business.
When I first got married, I visited a local health club. They offered me a great deal and a trainer put me on a program. However, I looked so weak compared to the teenage athletes who were also working out, that I only went there twice.
I did a couch-to-5k plan from Prevention magazine. I followed it until I was running 5 miles…Until I ran past some redneck teenagers in our neighborhood, who followed me, mocking my slow running.
It was 10 years before I tried working out again.
I have told my hit and miss yoga story here, but the short version is that I did not stick with a work-out until I found a tight-knit, small yoga studio with a teacher who was patient enough to work with anybody. And only then, did I notice the benefits I was gaining from yoga, to the point where I experience physical pain and noticable mental differences if I miss more than 2 classes in a week.
Diet is the same pattern. I tried diet after diet, giving up when I “slipped up” or “fell off the wagon.” Weight Watchers, in the end, left me with no excuses. It was only acceptable to speak of your journey in positive terms, and it became easy for me to see how much happier I am when I am eating well.
Recently, I regained 9 pounds. But when I finally weighed myself, I also noted that I have kept 19 pounds off. It’s not even a matter of the glass being half full, versus half empty.
So I am getting back on track.
So are you planning on making any New Year’s Resolutions? If you are, here are some lessons I have learned from my experience in setting (and achieving!) goals:
1. When (not if) you “slip up,” first look at the reasons for your “lack of motivation.”
Why are you not motivated to stick with your changes? Is there a good reason? Before you judge or muscle your way through, look at your reasons for quitting. I quit the step classes because I was self-conscious and needed a close-knit community without mirrors. I quit the yoga classes at the gyms, because I did not feel like I belonged. Once I found an exercise program that met my needs, motivation was no longer an issue.
2. Look at your reasons “why.”
After you look at your reasons for slipping up, look at your reasons for making the changes. Are you doing it just because someone told you to do it, or you think it is what you are supposed to do? Is this what you really want?
3. Try not to compare.
We are all different, and everyone struggles with something. If you are struggling with making a positive change, then the thing you are trying to change is not easy for you. So don’t compare yourself to the people who have it easy! Close your eyes, and make your best the only thing that you need!
4. Look at the big picture.
Slip-ups are a part of making changes. Growth is not a straight line, but it is a general trend. I regained 9 pounds, but I have still kept 19 off. Focus on the 19, not the 9. You are going to fall on and off the wagon. That is life.
5. Find supportive friends.
When you are frustrated, don’t talk to just anybody. Some friends will help you focus on the positive, and others will discourage you further. Learn to tell the difference.
What positive changes are you working on in the upcoming new year? What strategies have you found to be helpful when making changes?
We spent the past week visiting family and tying up loose ends in Michigan.
It was a week of changes and travel. We flew to a hotel in Detroit, rented a car and drove to our hometown of Midland, spent 3 days staying in a travel trailer at my father-in-law’s house, visited with my grandmas for one day, drove 3 hours to Grand Haven where we cleaned out our old sailboat, spent a rainy night tent camping on the beach, drove 3 more hours to Buchanan to visit my brother-in-law and meet my new nephew, spent one night at their house, then drove for 3 days with our friends who moved to Texas, camping along the way.
At my Weight Watchers meetings, we have talked a lot about vacations. The consensus is that these are times to maintain, or even just try to minimize the weight gain. It is perfectly okay not to track while on vacation.
This is all well and good, except that I had fallen off the wagon big time in the two weeks before we left. I gained weight at two meetings in a row. I was feeling anxious and lethargic, and I really needed to get back on track. When I eat better, I feel better.
So I tracked everything I ate on this trip, enjoyed some yummy treats, and planned ahead for each scenario we encountered. While this might not sound like fun, it actually helped me to feel better physically and mentally. I kept a level head throughout the trip and had a much higher energy level than I have in the past.
I do not weigh in until Wednesday, so we don’t know the official end result. But looking at my own scale, I lost somewhere between 2-4 pounds.
How did I have an amazing time, eat yummy food, and still lose weight? Let me tell you about each scenario and how I handled it!
Friday: Flying Out
Rob and I discussed our meal plans for the airport, ahead of time. We knew we would be eating there, since we like to give ourselves plenty of time to get through security. I looked on the airport’s website and saw that there is a Chick-Fil-A there. I had planned on ordering grilled nuggets, which are 1 point, but they did not offer them. After quickly consulting my app, I ordered a grilled chicken market salad with no dressing. This was 5 points, and it tasted amazing, even without the dressing.
For the flight, I packed my favorite 0 point snack–boiled eggs!
A quick tidbit of wisdom: If you are flying with a bag of boiled eggs, take them out of your bag when you go through security. While they are not considered liquids, the scanner identifies them as such, which can lead to having your bag searched. Of course the TSA agents found this highly amusing, as they had never encountered someone flying with a bag of eggs before!
Saturday: At the Hotel and On the Road!
We spent our first night at a hotel in Detroit, where we were treated to a continental breakfast. I enjoyed 1/4 of the gigantic waffles made by the machine, for 2 points. I also grabbed some 0 point fruit.
We then drove our rental car 3 hours to Midland, and we stopped at a grocery store on the way. I bought provisions for my favorite on-the-road lunch: sandwiches. We bought low-calorie bread (1 point per slice), light mayo (1 point per tablespoon), 98% fat free turkey lunch meat (0 points for 3 slices, 1 point for a full serving), and water. I also grabbed some fruit, fat-free cheese, Greek yogurt, and ranch mix to use once we reached our destination.
Saturday Night and Sunday: Visiting and Cooking Collaboratively
We arrived at my father-in-law’s house in time for dinner, which was sloppy joes. My stepmother-in-law and I always prepare meals together when I visit, so using the substitutions I brought was not a problem. (I do have a rule that I will eat anything that is homemade when visiting, because cooking is an act of love). I used my low-calorie bread and kept my sandwich open-faced. Ground beef is 4 points, sloppy joe sauce is 1 point, and the bread was one point. I had been conservative in my point values, so I also had enough points to enjoy some 4 point potato salad!
My stepmother-in-law keeps a fruit bowl in her kitchen, and she said we were welcome to munch on it during our stay. Whenever I was hungry, I nibbled on grapes. We planned breakfast together and ended up having French toast (made with my low-calorie bread, so it was 1 point per slice) with homemade strawberry syrup (I made mine without sugar, so it was 0 points), and sausage (3 points). The next morning, we had scrambled eggs (I used fat free cheese in mine, so they were 0 points) and sausage.
Fun in our hometown!
Lunch was, of course, sandwiches, and we went out for pizza on Sunday. This may seem like an impossible situation, but I had one slice of pizza, which I ate mindfully and thoroughly enjoyed. Then I finished my meal with a salad with no dressing.
Monday: Conquering the Chinese Buffet!
I treated myself to an early-morning yoga class on Monday. This got me some exercise, which I had been lacking, and helped me to stay positive and energized!
After having eggs for breakfast and sandwiches for lunch, we headed off to visit my grandmas. We spent a lovely time with my grandma Eileen at her house, then went to do some work at my grandma Misty’s house. (Her real name is Elaine, but I called her grandma Misty as a child, because I got my two grandma’s names mixed up. Fun fact: “Elaine” and “Eileen” are both variants of “Iliana”!)
When we moved to Texas, we left some items behind, and they eventually ended up my grandma’s garage. Our mission on this trip was to remove these items and drive them back to Texas in my father-in-law’s truck, which we were borrowing.
But before we set to work, we needed to eat. And we have a long-standing tradition of eating at Chinese buffets with my grandma and my Aunt Anne.
Yikes, right? Nope. Yum!
I began with hot and sour soup, for 3 points. Then I loaded up on 0 point shrimp and vegetables. I decided to have small servings and sesame chicken and General Tso’s chicken for 3-ish points, then used the rest of my points on Szechuan chicken (7-ish points) and half of an egg roll (3 points). I left feeling full and satisfied, without going over on my daily points!
Tuesday: Rainy, Yucky, and Stressful!
Then Tuesday happened. After a healthy breakfast of eggs and sausage, we drove to Grand Haven to work on Moonraker, our old boat. In the summer of 2012, we had sailed Moonraker from Bay City, on Lake Huron, to Grand Haven, on Lake Michigan. We had dry docked the boat with the mast down, planning on beginning the Great Loop the next summer. However, we moved to Texas instead, and the boat has been dry docked ever since.
We were determined to make this our last “working” trip to Michigan, so that meant that we had one day to empty and clean the boat, so that we could make arrangements for the marina to broker it.
The good news: The boat was in remarkably good shape.
The bad news: It was yucky and rainy all day.
I had hoped to make it to a yin yoga class in Grand Haven that evening, but the traffic we encountered on our trip to the store made that impossible. We finished at 6:30 on the dot. I had thought that the office closed at 6:30, but they actually closed at 6. So we weren’t able to sign over the title. We will do that by mail.
That evening we headed to our wet campsite on the beach. I had made reservations when the forecast looked good, or otherwise, we would have stayed at a hotel. We had found a tent in my grandma’s garage, which she said we could have. The stakes did not take hold in the sand, so it drooped.
That evening I was hangry! Grand Haven was supposed to be the high point of our trip, and it was nothing but yuck. We were not really able to enjoy one of our favorite port towns, from our sailing trip.
I didn’t make sandwiches for dinner. I went to Subway.
Did I order a salad? A low-fat sub?
I got myself a pizza. With extra cheese. And not fat free cheese either. Rob and I split a large bottle of wine.
And I tracked none of it.
Iliana, however, had a great time. She played with the other kids in the campground and loved the sand. We saw a lovely sunset over the water and watched the musical fountain, which had been a mainstay of our week on the seawall in Moonraker.
Wednesday: Visiting my Foodie Brother-in-Law
Wednesday is supposed to be my weigh-in day, and I had found a meeting near my brother-in-law’s house in Buchanan. If we broke camp at 6 am, I could make it.
We broke camp at 8:30.
So I had no idea how much damage I had done, but my weekly points had reset. I carefully chose a breakfast sandwich from Subway, tracked the points, and enjoyed the drive to Buchanan.
After finally meeting my 7 month old nephew, Will, we discussed our plans for the day. We decided to make our own wraps before heading to a winery. We were treated to a tasting, before settling on the most wonderful, caramelly tasting Pinot Grigio I have ever experienced.
Then we returned home for dinner and my brother-in-law made us very large, very delicious steaks, with mashed potatoes. I finished a portion much larger than a deck of cards and enjoyed every bite.
Breakfast was the most wonderful biscuits and gravy that I have ever eaten, along with hash brown potatoes. And orange juice.
By the time we left that morning, I had 0 weekly points remaining. Yes, I ate them all in one day! (And if the truth be told, I actually went into the negative by 18!) I have no regrets.
Thursday, Friday, and Saturday: Road Trip!
After eating that breakfast, we hit the road, so we could meet up with our friends who were moving to Texas. I bought fruit and boiled eggs for snacks (both are 0 points), and we ate sandwiches for lunch.
We camped in the evening and grilled turkey hot dogs (2 points) over the fire. Breakfast was fruit over Greek yogurt, and I added a salad with my lunch that day.
Lots of water, lots of salad and sandwiches, and lots of fruit and boiled eggs. Every morning, we stopped at the grocery store before we left.
Friday night, we stayed at a campground with a fitness center. I stepped on the scale in the evening, when I was full of water weight, and saw that I had lost 2 pounds! I am excited to see how I do at my weigh-in on Wednesday!
When I was a teenager, I was too skinny. But around the time I got married, I settled in at a healthy, happy weight, near the middle but slightly on the lower end of my healthy range. This is what I weighed in the picture above, taken early in our marriage, before that lovely green car behind us died tragically in 2003. I’ll call this happy, healthy weight “X.”
From time to time, I bounced above X, but I always found my way back. One summer, I made it up to X+15, which horrified me. My doctor recommended the South Beach Diet, so I gave it a try and was back to X within a month. So that is how I continued. I didn’t worry about my diet until I got to X+10, then I would do South Beach and get back down.
Then this happened:
This, my friends, is X+45.
Fortunately, I was one of those disgustingly annoying mothers who had a very easy time breastfeeding. Couple that with the fact that I was a tightwad, and that Iliana had serious stomach issues and wasn’t keen of eating solid food, and you get 22 months of calorie-burning breastfeeding goodness! It didn’t take me long to get down to X+10, and for the next few years, I hovered between X+5 and X+10.
I was embarrassed that I had to buy a size 8 for my brother-in-law’s wedding… Iliana (she was 3 in this picture!) wore her dress on special occasions for the next 4 years.
I kept losing, slowly, even after Rob’s mom died unexpectedly in 2011. I was looking pretty good by the time we set sail the summer of 2011, and I was between X and X+10 during the summer of 2012.
Meanwhile, my work situation was becoming less and less wonderful. It was getting more cut-throat, while the pay and benefits were decreasing. The hours were increasing, taking me away from Iliana. I began to see work as the price I had to pay, for 3 months of cruising.
And in 2013, I began to question that price.
That year, I was moved from the middle school to the high school. At first I was on my guard and gained weight from emotional eating. I wrote my first blog post about the topic, at this time. I started a small support group, which was helpful for a couple of weeks.
Then it hit the fan at work, and I was thrown into insecurity. I began to eat a pizza everyday for lunch. First, one from Subway, but eventually that evolved into a Hot ‘N Ready. As I made plans to make changes in my life, it only got worse. I felt unsafe, and food grounded me.
Here I am with my sister-in-law on my first visit to Texas. I was between X+15 and X+20.
I thought moving to Texas would bring relief, but I found myself caught up in the same drama at work. I gained a lot of weight that first year, getting up to X+43.
We had a “greatest loser challenge” at work, and I took fourth place, getting down to X+30, which is where I remained for the next 3 years. I was not excited about this weight, but I started working out and practicing yoga, which taught me a great deal about accepting where I am in any given moment, physically and emotionally. (More about yoga in a future post!).
I began to notice that I was emotionally eating, and that I was unable to detect my hunger cues, so I started working with a dietician. This was incredibly valuable, as she helped me to see my patterns and to brainstorm alternatives. My dietician introduced me to the book, “Intuitive Eating,” which gave me many tools that I had been previously lacking and helped me to stop demonizing certain foods. Through working with her, I was able to weigh myself regularily, without attaching so much emotion to the number on the scale. It is just a data point.
Then came the 2017-18 school year. This period of time brought more significant challenges than I had ever faced before in my life before then. I began to use food as a coping mechanism more than ever. It started out with a candy bar here and there, especially after work.
I stopped weighing myself during this time, but my weight was definitely creeping up.
By Christmas, I was grabbing fast food after work, because the feeling of a full belly was so comforting.
In the end, I was ordering a pizza for lunch–a whole pizza, delivered. I would munch on it all day, to soothe myself at work. Then I would still grab fast food on the way home, before eating dinner.
Then, on March 1, I went on leave from my job, permanently. I wasn’t losing weight yet, but the pattern was broken.
The above picture is a selfie that Iliana and I took the first day I got to walk her to the bus stop!
My second week on leave, we took this picture of me at my “happy place,” Elijah’s retreat in Jacksonville, Texas. When I got home, I finally stepped on the scale. X+50. I was 5 pounds heavier than my pregnancy weight!
After leaving my job, I did find that I was emotionally eating a lot less. I started going to yoga daily, which helped me to better process my experiences over the past year. And I decided that I was ready to start actively working on weight loss. I began with my old standby–low carb–and lost 7 pounds in 2 weeks.
After this initial success, I went out for smoothies with one of my closest friends, who had gotten me through my challenging year with near-weekly smoothie dates on Saturday mornings. I mentioned that I was eating low-carb, and she said, “I always had a lot of success with Weight Watchers. I am a lifetime member now, which means I don’t have to pay to go to meetings.”
The seed was planted, so of course I had to check it out.
I browsed Weight Watchers’ website, and I really liked the simplicity and flexibility of the eating plan, and I knew that the emotional support at the meetings would be beneficial for me. So I took advantage of an offer where I paid for 3 months upfront, and got 50% off.
My first meeting was an extremely positive experience. I found that the positive atmosphere stood in contrast to the typically punitive attitude toward “dieting” that is pervasive in our culture. It felt good, and it fit very well with what I had been learning in yoga and with my dietician.
Yes, we had to weigh in first, but it wasn’t the daunting experience I thought it would be. People talked about weight and numbers very matter-of-factly. It was one indicator of progress, and for me, it was a starting point. I set my goal for X, and enjoyed hearing all the practical ideas people shared in the meeting. I felt immediately accepted, and I loved our leader. She was one of those people who instantly lights up a room.
In Weight Watchers, you earn charms for meeting milestones, and it did not take me long to earn my 5 pound charm. And right after I earned it, I spent the weekend downtown at a moped rally. I had asked for ideas about this upcoming rally, in the meeting. Some people recommended choosing healthier choices at restaurants, carrying my own snacks, or even just not tracking and getting back on track after the weekend! As much as I prepared, when it came down to it, I chose the latter. And had a great time!
At this point, I was X+38!
After the rally, I got right back on program. I found that I felt better when I was more active. Not exercising, per se, but just incorporating more activity into my day. Weight Watchers has “fitpoints” that you track, so I wore a pedometer and started walking whenever I could. A day’s worth of laundry could earn me nearly 9000 steps! As my fitpoints goal increased, I noticed that I was hungry a lot more. I started allowing my weekly points to go into the negative, by 20-40, and I kept losing 1-2 pounds a week. If I was not as active, I gained weight.
And before I knew it, I earned my 10 pound charm! By this point, I was getting comments about my weight loss, and I had to retire some of my clothing. My yoga pants were falling down in class! But the flowered dress still fit…
Things slowed a bit after that, but with consistency (and a few ups and downs), I found myself at X+31 the first week of June.
What you don’t know is that Iliana was showing the earliest signs of heat stroke in that picture, and her temperature spiked to 102.5 that night…it was terrifying…
With consistency, as well as taking a break during the occasional week, I made slow and steady progress. I found that working through emotional eating required diligence. I had to make more changes to my life, and make sure that I was spending time with people who were supportive.
And so here I am, currently at X+27!
So….In the spirit of the many guest posts I wrote when I was a “serious” blogger, I am going to end this story with a take-away!
Here are some lessons I have learned in my weight loss journey:
Start with the groundwork.
I worked with my dietician for over a year before I lost a pound. At my first appointment, I had expected her to give me a meal plan that I could follow, so that I could lose weight quickly. Instead, she helped me to see that I already knew a lot about nutrition. And you likely do, too. The information is readily available, and following any diet/food plan will result in weight loss. Low-carb and low-fat are equally as effective. So the important question is, why aren’t we eating the way that we know to eat? I was unhappy, and food was my addiction that helped me cope with being unhappy. Finding peace and happiness required a MAJOR life change that had nothing to do with food. I don’t think weight loss would have happened if I had not quit my job. Weight gain is a part of a larger picture, and a lot has to be unraveled before the pattern can be permanently changed.
2. Consider professional help to get you started.
I worked with a dietician and a therapist. Emotional eating is an addiction. It is a very socially accepted addiction, but it is an addiction nonetheless. I was overeating because I was unhappy. If I hadn’t worked with professionals to learn tools and to gain the clarity to make changes in my life, I may have replaced my overeating with a different addiction. It would have been the same scenario as the AA members smoking outside, before their meeting. Ending the cycle is hard, and having access to professional support can be very valuable. I paid out of my pocket to see my dietician, and I will likely do it again after I reach my goal, to help me maintain.
3. Actually read the book “Intuitive Eating.”
It’s not what most people think it is. It is not about eating whatever you want and forgetting the consequences. It is about honoring your hunger and respecting your fullness. And about allowing all foods into your life. In the end, the focus turns to nutrition and making informed choices. This book and the workbook have helped me tremendously in Weight Watchers. While a lot of people in my meeting are strict about what they eat and avoid, I have indulged in poutine and lost weight! Rob and I go out to a bar and split a burger and fries, and I order a beer. A lot of people on Weight Watchers avoid pancakes, but I eat them (in smaller portions) most mornings.
4. Approach it with a truly body positive attitude.
Like intuitive eating, the phrase “body positive” has been distorted in popular culture. Notice how many “before” pictures I have, and how I am smiling in all of them. I enjoyed seeing and posting the selfie and Iliana and me, on my first day on leave from my job, because I could see how happy I was. I was beautiful in that picture, because that was such a powerfully life-changing day. And in the picture when I was my heaviest, I was sitting in my happiest place, having made it through an unbelievably awful school year. I did not hate myself for being obese, and I do not hate myself for being overweight. However, I love myself too much to remain a slave to an addiction. I love myself enough to find peace and happiness. Overeating was a poor substitute. I love myself enough to be healthy. I feel more energetic when I eat balanced meals and am active. My moods improve when I take care of myself. Yes, I feel prettier when I weigh X. But that does not mean I am ugly when I do not. Being body positive means getting to know your body. I weigh myself daily, so I can see my patterns. I fluctuate by 1-2 pounds, then I dump down when it is close to a week. One time I dumped the day after a weigh-in!
5. Find movement that you love!
I have never forced myself to go to yoga. It makes me happy, it makes me feel good, and it is a community where I belong, am valued, and am connected. I modify, based on what I can do each day, so it never “kicks my butt.” My practice has become such a joyful part of my life, that I happily get up and go to class at 6am twice a week! Sometimes I do extra side planks during sun salutations, and sometimes I spend most of the class in child’s pose. But showing up is never a problem. Find your version of that, and you will never struggle to be active again.
6. Find supportive friends.
Enlist your tribe! I found supportive friends in my yoga class, and one of them actually joined Weight Watchers with me. I have connected with a number of people from my meetings as well. The reality is that not everyone will be supportive when you are making changes. Weight loss is about so much more than weight loss, and it will lead to changes in your relationships. Make sure that you are around people who are positive and supportive.
7. And LAST…find a flexible food plan (or two).
The food plan really does come last! Because if you don’t do the groundwork, you will not stick to it. But when you do it, remember that any diet will cause you to lose weight, if you can follow it. So pick something that is easy to follow, for you! The best advice I read, was to have two food plans. Start with a food-list plan (such as low carb or low fat), then have a counting plan (such as calorie counting) as a backup. That way, if you eat bread or a doughnut, you are not off the hook. You can count calories and stay on track. Weight Watchers is primarily a counting plan, but it also has a food list component. I use it as my framework, then vary how I eat within it. Sometimes I do vegan, sometimes I do low-carb, on and sometimes I just eat small portions of my American favorites!
What has helped you on your weight loss journey? Please share in the comments!